There Is A Castle On A Cloud...

so i haven't updated y'all. as for ERNEST-- no call back-- no go. but really and truly i wasn't expecting it, so it doesn't even sting.

next up was LES MISERABLES-- which i did today. in a word-- i am THRILLED! i walked into this audition a nervous mess. with the events of this past week (go HERE for the story) swarming through my head and the pressure i put on myself to sound good i was totally and utterly a dork.

LUCKILY, i am blessed with a boston sister who not only drove me to the audition, but coached and supported and said all of the right things in order to make sure i went in with as much confidence as i could muster.

there is this mind game that you play with yourself as you sit outside the audition door. you watch as each nervous auditioner takes his/her place in line, enters the door and then patiently wait to hear the muffled sounds of a piano and singing to start so that you can then begin the neurotic comparison to this person you don't even know. there is danger in this game-- one that will thwart every attempt you make at self-confidence. and let me tell you, you walk into an audition with two things

1- all the talent you have mixed with your preparation and
2- all the self-confidence you can find within you.

this is usually a game in my mind that wins. i'm not a very strong auditioner.

so when i walked through those doors of the room today with a clear head and a bout of happy- go-lucky charisma that surprised even me, i let go of all that nonsense and just had fun!

so i made a joke or two and had the director and the piano player laughing- took my place and started. HE PLAYS THE VIOLIN from the musical 1776 was my selection-- one that showed my range as well as my soprano voice pretty nicely.

dudes- i am pleased to announce, that whether or not i made this show, i did my best- quite possibly better then my best. i was strong and hit every note and finished with a bang!!!! WHOO HOOO!! the director said, and i quote "that was really nice- your voice really plays well on those tops notes- good job." YAYAYAYAY!!!!!

will i make it? who knows. but really even if i don't i can really learn from this experience that i can do this. i will take all of this confidence from this fantastic experience and keep on keepin' on!