TAKE A MEETING

when you wanna get anywhere... you have to reach out.

so tomorrow, i'm reaching.

i'm taking a meeting with a friend of a friend.

somehow, someway, somewhere this has to help things progress.

i'll let you know how it goes.

yes i am still being pretty cryptic so as not to accidentally say things that could stand in my way.

but i figure for the 2 people that read this blog, you'll probably already know what's going on with me anyway and won't need to ask.

POWER OF POSITIVE THINKING

i had a friend in town this past weekend. on our way to church, in his pimped out caddy rental i told him we would probably have to park far away because we were a bit late... he scoffed and told me that we were going to get really close parking because he had decided it. i totally made fun of him for this and he talked my ear off about how good things will happen to those that believe it. then he turned into the "horse-shoe" (the circular street right outside the church, where there is almost ALWAYS no parking for us late-comers). i was floored when, right in the front of the door to the chapel was a HUGE parking space- with plenty of space for our mother-load of a car.

point taken.

i have been thinking about this a lot and realized something about myself. when i was younger, the world nor anyone that would dare to try could not stop me from being who i wanted to be. i was empowered by my positive thoughts- and good things did come my way- mostly because i decided they would be that way.

then life happened. disappointments happened. people and things let me down and somewhere along the way i became good friends with the cynic monster. not always believing in the good things... not always expecting things to go right-- on the contrary-- knowing they would go wrong... because that's what happens in my world. being the fulfiller of my own negative prophecies of failure.

i have decided it's time to bring back the old peggy that had all the confidence in the world to become anything she wants to be... that has the drive to make it all happen and can use the knowledge gained over those hard years to make the better decisions and focus on the "open parking spot." no more poo pooing my plans- no more second guessing myself- no more negativity!

dude i am so ready for my prime parking spot- i've waited so long for this... it's my turn!

A Little Help From My Friends

i had dinner tonight with a friend of mine who is a very well-known individual. although she has been in the national and international spotlight before, she is the most genuine, kind person you'd meet.

this friend has been so very ready to be a cheerleader for me as i embark on my crazy journey to reach my goals. i can't tell you how grateful i am for her support.

one of the last things she said to me before i left her house was:

"peggy, i can just tell that you will be great at this... you can just tell that you have something in your life that you need to do... it's just such a strong feeling. there's something you were meant to do."

as she said this i was reminded of several blessings i have been given over the past two years of my life. the feeling struck me again and i felt this strange sort of power- like what i am trying to accomplish is actually a reality for me... it's within my grasp... it's real.

is it even possible to be afraid that the things you've always hoped for will actually come true? why would i be afraid of that?

but dudes- i AM going to make this happen. just wait and see.

AHHHH MAN!!!

did i tell you guys that i turned down an offer to work as a PA on the new sandra bullock movie that's being made here? i know you are all screaming at me.

a) i had to say no-- when i commit to something, i commit-- and since i love my boss and because i had already told him i would work through this season i had to say it... just had to.

b) believe me it hurt my heart to do it-- but hopefully because i was faithful to my commitments, i will be blessed with other such opportunities!

c) yes after the drama at my work over the past few weeks i AM kicking myself hard for being a stupid loyal-head!!!

Could Be... Who Knows

there's something due, any day
i will know right away
soon as it shows

it may come cannonballing right through the sky
gleam in its eye
bright as a rose
who knows
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not to be cryptic... well okay... yes to be cryptic for the sake of keeping things on the DL for a while-- i will say the following statement and leave it at that.

being burnt has finally led me to the fire under my butt that is urging me forward. i now have the quickness in my step and the confidence that i have needed all along. so change is on its way and all of my lovely blog-land friends will know what that is soon... hopefully sooner rather than later.

MOOOOOOO-VIE

calling all people!!! come stand in line and wait three hours to get your picture taken! yes, that's right! you too can be herded with the rest of the live-stock in a line as long as japan, be poked and prodded to the "big room" where you finally get to sit down, wait a little longer in your seat, get your picture taken and then told to leave! branding will occur only if you are actually chosen to be a professional cow for this movie.

+ totally fun. totally worth it. my new roomie mindy did it with me... good times. good memories.

+ there are some serious professional cattle-call people out there, who came prepared with stools to sit on, books to read and food to eat. dude, i am so not aware of how this is supposed to work!

+ the movie peeps are looking for girls with natural-looking hair, no highlights. blondes especially... umm... that's me! one of the only blondes standing in line, that i could see anyway.

+ met some cool people that are soon to be facebook friends.

+ the NYC casting people were all really really nice. surprising. they even extending the call by two hours because of the number of people in line... i actually like to think that they were holding out for me!

+ martin... i mean mr. scorsese... here i come. you will be so happy that the casting people picked me (if they do pick me, that is) that when i am there, standing next to leo in the shot, you will say "WOW YOU'RE THE MOST AMAZING EXTRA I HAVE EVER WORKED WITH" and i will get a smug look on my face and say "yeah i know!"

dear mr. scorsese,

i am writing to let you know that i am auditioning for your next movie, to be filmed here in the bean and i would like to ask you, if it would be okay if you were to let me be in it.

i am an actress. i like to act. i have acted ever since i was little. i would like to be in your movie because i think you are neat!

so on saturday, when i come, would you please tell your casting director that they should cast me in the same scene that leonardo is in so i can brag to all my friends that i was in a movie with him? oh, and also cause i could really use the money.

i hope you are well and that you are excited to make your next movie.

sincerely,
peggy